Friend, adulting can suck for sure and you’re not alone in thinking so, but if you’re experiencing suicidal ideation you might need to talk to someone professional. I hope things end up okay. Let me know if I can help.
Bruh I think of suicide on a daily level. I don’t do it, but I think about it. Honestly the basic things of modern life get me more than things that most people would expect. My jeep has been dinging because it eats oil. But it’s at that level in-between the problem levels. So it senses the oil level is low, and if it were really low, it’d ding 3x and stop. But it is somewhere in-between so it’ll ding 1-3 times, then cut off. But then it goes off again and it’ll ding another 1-3 times. But then it senses oil again, and I shift gears and it’ll ding again for one to three times. Just be below the level for fucks sake! That dinging is enough for me to want to kill myself. Id love to have a more valid reason, but the little things set me off more than anything.
I heard an interview with a woman who tried to commit suicide. She was having lots of suicidal thoughts without actually planning to do anything, like you are. But, one day something happened and suddenly she decided that was it. I think she took a lethal dose of pills and she was just lucky someone happened to find her before it was too late. I think that’s a very common sequence of events.
She now really regrets trying to do that and works to try to prevent other people from committing suicide.
I’ve also been there, thinking about it without actually ever planning to… I regret not getting therapy sooner.
My point is this is actually serious and therapy may help you enjoy life more. What’s the point in living if you’re not enjoying it? Why not do what you can to make it more enjoyable? And maybe it would prevent you from doing something really regrettable.
I think you should at least call a hotline and explain your feelings to someone who knows about this stuff professionally. I’ve heard they get a lot of calls that are much less important and they’re still happy to help.
Friend, adulting can suck for sure and you’re not alone in thinking so, but if you’re experiencing suicidal ideation you might need to talk to someone professional. I hope things end up okay. Let me know if I can help.
Bruh I think of suicide on a daily level. I don’t do it, but I think about it. Honestly the basic things of modern life get me more than things that most people would expect. My jeep has been dinging because it eats oil. But it’s at that level in-between the problem levels. So it senses the oil level is low, and if it were really low, it’d ding 3x and stop. But it is somewhere in-between so it’ll ding 1-3 times, then cut off. But then it goes off again and it’ll ding another 1-3 times. But then it senses oil again, and I shift gears and it’ll ding again for one to three times. Just be below the level for fucks sake! That dinging is enough for me to want to kill myself. Id love to have a more valid reason, but the little things set me off more than anything.
I heard an interview with a woman who tried to commit suicide. She was having lots of suicidal thoughts without actually planning to do anything, like you are. But, one day something happened and suddenly she decided that was it. I think she took a lethal dose of pills and she was just lucky someone happened to find her before it was too late. I think that’s a very common sequence of events.
She now really regrets trying to do that and works to try to prevent other people from committing suicide.
I’ve also been there, thinking about it without actually ever planning to… I regret not getting therapy sooner.
My point is this is actually serious and therapy may help you enjoy life more. What’s the point in living if you’re not enjoying it? Why not do what you can to make it more enjoyable? And maybe it would prevent you from doing something really regrettable.
I think you should at least call a hotline and explain your feelings to someone who knows about this stuff professionally. I’ve heard they get a lot of calls that are much less important and they’re still happy to help.