• ArmchairAce1944@discuss.online
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      Stress fucks up your academic performance something fierce. I don’t blame you for having poor grades. I got fired in my first Trump term.

    • NauticalNoodle@lemmy.ml
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      The irony is that in a lot of states you’d be reported to the police for truancy and missing too much school. -Yet another way to put a target on your back.

      • Yes, depression and fucking household issues. So much fucking yelling in the house.

        I not exactly in a good mood right now so I don’t bother to use proper grammer.

        I’m dreading a Chinese Exclusion Act 2.0 and also busy helping with family stuff… and I get yelled at a lot by my parents because I “didn’t do the stuff correctly”

        Depression makes my mind kinda split into 2 languages so I kinda mixed things up lol

        Flashbacks to getting bullied in school

        Ugh

              • I did get an official depression diagnosis… by a PCP/ General Practicianer, not a psychaitrist.

                I was on Lexapro for a bit, then my emotions got out of control and I misused it… overdose on Lexapro… (in attempt to feel better, not really a suicide attempt), nothing really happened except I feel a bit weird and like… obviously I did not die. I did this several times… I told the doctor about these incidents, I was told to see an actual psychaitrist… so this is where I am right now…

                Idk who to trust lol

                Fun fact: My mom keeps blaming me for my “self harm” and she said it was my fault for overdosing.

                Hmm guess who was the one that set up this toxic home environment?

                But I can’t even confront her about it… the power dynamic is so different… mom is always right about everything…

                This is just typical Chinese culture… nobody really understand mental health… it’s just so stigmitized.

                You’re either completely insane, or you’re just lazy and “lying and faking it” to get out of responsibilities.

                I honestly have this morbid curiosity and wonder how my mom would feel if I actually kms.

                I wonder if she would actually feel bad about me dying.

      • bthest@lemmy.world
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        No need to be jealous. You’ll get that GED someday. Hopefully ICE won’t be around to join by then.