English is my first language and I still read it the same way as you at first.

Oh, my psych asked about putting me on benzos before and I told him the same thing. I ain’t about to risk fucking with one of the very few drugs where the withdrawls are actually lethal.

Same here but with diazepam. I went in to have my gallblader removed a while back and while I was waiting in preop, my anxiety was acting up. I told the nurse about it so they shot some diazepam into my IV. It was at that moment that I knew that I can never be safely prescribed a benzo. Holy shit, the amount of sheer calm that washed over me was mindblowing. I was as zen as the fucking Buddha. Everything was completely ok. My mellow could not be harshed. I have never in my life felt that at ease.

So I know damn well that I could not be trusted with a pill bottle full of that feeling. If I was given a bottle of benzos I would wreck myself faster than a self driving tesla in a construction zone.